Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

And one of these days I will truly be able to say that I am beautiful and mean it. But for now I am judging a book too much by it's cover and can't get past the cover to tell people how awesome the book that is me really is once you open it up and rifle through the pages. I heart my friend that pointed this out to me last night and how much I rely on other peoples perceptions of me to make me feel self worth. I know I am beautiful on the inside, I at least have a good grasp on that. I love my compassion for others and my intelligence. Though I am starting to question my so called "intelligence" some if I am unable to see that I am beautiful all over. I depend too much on having a guy tell me I am beautiful to think that I am. I don't see the outer beauty of my body hardly at all and I let others get into my head to make me question my inner beauty at times. Here I will quote my epic smart friend "You hold yourself back. You doubt yourself and you hide. And fuck them if they don't appreciate your appearance - nobody asked them. Plenty of people will be happy to be as pleased with your physical presence as you are." She is totally right and putting it down in black and white helps show me what I have to work on because goodness knows I didn't see it clearly before she threw it out in my face like that. Anyways I'm off not to have an adventure... I'm sure that when I come back in about a week there will be more pots and more working myself back into less of a mess, but for now I leave you with this video.