The Color Asylum: One Foot In Front Of The Other

So I've been keeping busy the past 2 weeks and there is a bit of catching up to do and getting all of my thoughts out of my head. So I am single and I finally got him to come over and TALK to me. This ended in the same story that I was getting in text and continuing to prove that we can have fun and work together well because he started to help me with the puzzle I was working on to keep me moving while I waited for him to get here for the talk. There were no words at first then the flood of tears hit and I got him to tell me that it was 100% him and not me to my face. So that was useful. And I was driving an hour away to work and had to drive by his house to get there. That wasn't fun. That was purely torture, as was the one time I was carpooling up there and instead of taking the route by my Ex's apartment we took the other route, except my ride was literally on the phone with his girlfriend for the hour drive. Oh yeah and he randomly decided that he needed another vacation and thus is currently on a boat doing a five day cruise two weeks before ours. I forgot to mention that when he came over he kept asking to make sure I was going on the cruise with him still because he was really looking forward to going with me. I can't tel if his I need to work on me line is just his excuses to break up with me or if he is really so confused about so many things that he actually needed to take a step back. I miss him. This is hard. We were still talking everyday. Now I get to go cold turkey for 5 days and not talk to him at all then pick it all up and go on a cruise with him in twelve days. I will be cut off form the outside world stuck on a boat with him for FIVE whole days and then the car ride each way which is something like 10 hours if I remember right. Sure I can go get lost on the boat but I still have to come back to the same room as him at the end of the day. But yeah I got that off my chest and now I will share the song that played on the radio tonight at work that started these emotions back to the surface after I had smothered them for as long as I did.