Glass Half-Empty or Half-Full?

Today I feel hollow and I really cant decide how I feel. I know it is because I have my emotions locked away right now as I try not to jump to conclusions one way or the other with what will happen with my relationship. Still I don't like this feeling and can't quite decide what to do or how to act. I shut down a part of me as I try to wait this out and get through it I just don't like doing that, but at times like this I have to. I have one more day of work then my "date night" with him and I am off for 2 days where I only have to hide my emotions to my parents and they won't be around most of it and then I can busy myself with cleaning and keep myself in a constant state of motion without fear of my emotions causing backlash in some other way at work. Then my Grandma that I haven't seen in I want to say 8 years comes into town and hopefully if things aren't resolved by then I can at least use that as a distraction so that I don't have to hide my emotions because I'm not thinking about them they will just be happening as I spend time with her and don't have time to myself to dwell on what may or may not be. Either way if you are reading this please cross your fingers for me that I can make it through this with my sanity, and that "date night" tomorrow doesn't feel as awkward as I am expecting it to.